Now the disciples had forgotten to bring any bread; and they had only one loaf with them in the boat. And Jesus cautioned them, saying, "Watch out—beware of the yeast of the Pharisees and the yeast of Herod." They said to one another, "It is because we have no bread." And becoming aware of it, Jesus said to them, "Why are you talking about having no bread? Do you still not perceive or understand? Are your hearts hardened? Do you have eyes, and fail to see? Do you have ears, and fail to hear? And do you not remember? When I broke the five loaves for the five thousand, how many baskets full of broken pieces did you collect?" They said to him, "Twelve." "And the seven for the four thousand, how many baskets full of broken pieces did you collect?" And they said to him, "Seven." Then he said to them, "Do you not yet understand?"
Today is Tuesday the 19 February in the Sixth week of Ordinary time.
Ladysmith Black Mambazo sing: ‘Baba wethu singenile’: ‘Our father, we have entered in the holy place, as you have invited us. Be close to us. Open our hearts to understand your word. Remove the darkness that surrounds us and give us your light.’
Today’s reading is from the Gospel of Mark.
‘Do you still not perceive or understand?’ What is it that stops me from seeing, from hearing, from perceiving, from understanding? As I place myself before God, am I like those people in the boat; the more I try, the less I see?
But notice also your desire to see … to hear … to perceive … and to understand. Where is that desire in you? What do you want to see, hear, understand?
As you hear the reading again, imagine yourself as one of them, in that boat, puzzled, trying to do or say the right thing but not quite managing it. How does Jesus look at you? Is he angry … or is he willing you to understand? How do you imagine it?
Speak to the Lord now and tell him about what you want to see ... to hear … to perceive and to understand. Ask God to help you, and pray that you may let yourself be helped.